What will I be?

When I was just a little girl (ok, when I was a little boy)
I asked my mother
What will I be
Will I be pretty
Will I be rich
Here's what she said to me

Que sera, sera
Whatever will be, will be
The future's not ours to see
Que sera, sera
What will be, will be

I think everybody knows this song, sung by Doris Day in the film, "The Man who knew too much."

What will I be? This is a question, I asked myself a lot, when I was 12 Years old, I asked myself this question even more, when I was 17 years old and now, nearly 37 years, I asked myself this question again.

What will I be?

Life changes a lot of times. It changes, when you came from childhood into youth, it changes, when you get your first job, when you marry someone, when the first child came and so on. And when all the typical were done. Building a house, marrying a girl, getting a baby and planting a tree. When all this is done, you should think life calm down now. But it isn’t so. Not in my life.

I am always on the run. I am searching new things, I am searching for new tasks, and I can’t stop. I thought that I can live my life in quietness now, because I have everything I wish for, but far wrong. I am reading book after book, to find out what I will be, can be, now, in the future.

At the moment I am reading the book from Barbara Sher “Wishcraft. How to get what you really want.” She promise to me, that I will know, what I really want and that I get, what I really want, after reading her book. That sounds great, but…If it is so easy, why did not everybody in the world do this? Hey, everybody would be happy, everybody…I hope she is right with her promise…

What about you? Are you the one you would be, or are you on the way? And when you still there, how did you make it? (pleeeeeaaaase tell me...)

Yours,

Markus

What is luck?

A friend of mine ask me, what luck is and why some people have so much of it and some poeple have nothing of it.

I think luck is a chance. I can't control it. Either it comes to me or not. Luck doesn't ask if you are rich or intelligent, it doesn't search people who need it. It took those who were just there, so it is.

But there is something like luck. I can control it. I can propagate it. If I bother, I can hold it. It's not important if I am rich or poor, If a had a job or not.

It is SATISFACTION!

I am in charge of how satisfied I am with me, with my familiy, with my job or with my neighbourhood. I control whether I am happy in the morning or not or how happy I am, when I come home. I am in charge of, how much love i give to my familiy.

Natural there are things I can't control. I can't control the weather, but I can handle it lucky and took my cagoule on, instead of getting wet. Individually I can't control the environmental policy, but I can search others and move a lot together. And so on.
But keep in mind, if there is something you can't control as individual or as collective, leave it and accept it.

Sometimes I am unsatisfied with my work or my life and I am sad and ask myself to pack in my job, but than I remember my familiy and my friends and all the love they give to me and everything is good. Sometimes it helps to think of other people, to help other people and to do good things to others. This is it, what makes me feel Satisfied. The more I pay attention to the wellfare of others, the more I feel satisfied. This may sound paradox, but so it is.

However, it is under my control, how I handle it.

I wish you well,

Markus :-)

We have a new flatmate

As long as I can think, I had a cat. My first cat lives 11 Years, but then somebody poison it. We all were very sad. After that we get a little kitten. She died after 12 years from cancer. This is ten years ago. But yesterday we bought a new one, after I get on Sandra's nerves till she said yes. :-)

Here a few pictures from our little kitten named Phoebe...






So long,
Markus

What is a wedding good for?

Today I read on Bianca's facebook page, that Matt will marry her. What a lucky day for her (and him, because she said "yes", to my knowledge ;-) )

But, what is a marriage good for? What do you think!?

I am together with my wife since 17 years and we are married since 10 years this summer.

When I was a little boy I want to marry my mom, today I won't. ;-) When I grew up there were a lot of little girls I want to marry, I think there was every month a new one, so are little boys. :-)

Then there was my first big Love, when I was 16, and I want to marry her, but it was only a holiday Love (at that time, sadly). After that, there was another big Love. She broke my heart.

And then there was Sandra (my wife). We were young and the first years, there was many ups and downs. After four years we move together in an apartment and after seven years we marry and two children came with it.

Life in marriage isn't always easy and funny. Everybody thought it should be and the most time it is, but not always. Sometimes you have to fight for your Love, sometimes there are tears and sometimes it isn't easy. You have to work for it, like in every relationship.

Many young people get divorced after a few years, because they forget, that every relationship is work. Work on yourself, work for the mate, work for the children and and and...

I Love my wife and I Love my family, also it isn't sometimes easy, but I Love to work on it...work for the Love...

A marriage is good. Good for Love and good for everyone who find his Love of life and who want seal it in the face of God, or the civil registry office... ;-)

So long,
Markus :-)

Skiing 2010

For all of you, who wonder where I was the last two weeks. Here a few impressions:

My first time in Calvary Chapel Duesseldorf

Last night I had my first time in Calvary Chapel Duesseldorf. Pastor Edmund Coronel greet me in a very kind way and I was happy to be there. Sadly we were only four people including Pastor Edmund. :-)

But that was not so bad because like Matthew 18:20 say. "For where two or three are assembled in my name, I am there among them.” And so we did it it in a little circle. But he said, on sundays they are a lot of more people. So I will try it the next time on sunday.

After the worship Edmund and I spoke a lot about all the world and his brother and it was very nice. He is a very kind guy.

I am still wondering how I find the way to Calvary Chapel here. First I get in contact with Patch Adams, because I saw his film and I wrote him a letter, from there to Paige, who represented him. I read her blog and from there to her husbands blog, who is a friend of DJ, a photographer in Santa Barbara. From his blog to Jasmines and from there to the blog of Bianca, who preaches in LA. She gave me the contact details to Calvary Chapel Duesseldorf. Long way around the world. :-)

God moves in mysterious ways!!!

So long,
Markus :-)

Thankfulness

Often, we look back in life, being angry about that, what all happend on bad things to us. But I think we should be more thankful about the good things that happend to us and all the love people give to us.



I am thankful for the good weather today.

I am thankful, that my parents decided to hold me, although I am the fifth child, my mother took the pill and I was not planed.

I am thankful for my four brothers and sisters. Without them I couldn't done at all, what I have done till now.

I am thankful for all my friends. For those you were, who are and those who will be.

I am thankful, that I was once at the bottom of my life, because without that experience, I would not be here at that point of my life.

I am thankful for my weakness and for those who bore them with me...

I am thankful for my wife, who went with me through all my ups and downs of my life.

And I am very thankful for my both children. Without them I wouldn't know the meaning of my life.

What are you thankful for...?

Birthday Days

Yesterday and today are the days of birthdays....

Yesterday my wife, my nephew, my best friend, another good friend and today the one of my son.

My little boy is now at the age of 9 and he is not that little as I have him in my mind and it seems he grew up faster than I can imagine.

I can still remember as he saw the light of the day...it was 11pm when we went to the hospital and Sandra had contractions since her birthday afternoon coffee. Her wish was not to become a mother on her own birthday. Thankfully they hang on till 5am on the next day and Keno get also his own birthday. :-)

Until then, this was the longest night I ever undergo. Only Livia, my little daughter makes us to hold on several days. :-) But that is another story.

Keno is now nine and I am thankfull, that he is a part of my life. (in almost the same manner like the rest of my family). In the afternoon (for Party), we went with his friends to the Neandertal museum near Duesseldorf. It's a place were they find and old human, the Neandertaler (he lives alongsite the homo sapiens). It's a expedition to the old world 160.000 years back in time...

His Birthday gifts from us are a new bike, a book, and a wood carving knife.

I wish him all the best and give all my love to him.

Happy Birthday Keno!

When is the moment somebody take advantage of you?

I am a very sociable dude and I have a lot of "friends" out there and I know a lot of people and whenever it is possible I will help people.

I worked in many voluntary jobs. I worked for the red cross as a paramedic, I worked as a lifeguard and I look like David Hasselhoff in Baywatch. I don't really look like him but in the red trunks I look as funny as him. I do a social job in a school...and so on...

I do all these jobs additionally to my normal job and they were fun and I would do it again, because I love helping people, but in the meantime everybody wants me to do anything for him...as I said allready I like to help and I never want to get back anything, but now I have the feeling, it's enough.

Hey Markus, can you do this for me, hey Markus I need this, Hey Markus.....

At the moment I would like so say "no" to everybody, but thats not me...

When is the moment somebody take advantage of you? When is it time to say "no"?

my first entry in the new blog

Hi everybody,

this is a blog for my english spoken friends all over the world. I am not a native english speaker, but I will try to write a good english, as much as I can.

For those who don't know me yet. My name is Markus and I am from Duesseldorf in germany. I am husband, a father, a son, a brother, a friend and so much more the people want me to be. In my free time I love to be with my family and when theres time, I love to play wii or xbox (sometimes with my familiy). ;-)

I was inspirated to write an english blog by Bianca who lives in Los Angeles. She is a very talented preacher and a very cute person. I don't really know how I become acquainted with her and I don't know her personally, but now I am reading her blog daily.

If you are interested, you find her here:

http://liveinthenameoflove.blogspot.com

Bianca wrote nearly every day a question or a statement about the belief and other things in life what has to do with the Lord in her blog and so will I do in the hope that anybody read this anytime and gives her or his statment to this.

So my first question will be:

Is it possible to be a good human or to be a good servant for god, if I abuse children? Will god forgive those people who do criminal abuse of children?

These times in germany we heard every day another terrible new about that in the TV news. Preacher, priest, teacher and many more have done this. They abuse children. In the last twenty years, there are thousends of cases, they find out now. But why only now? If the roman catholic church know about this since years, why didn't they do anything?

In the meantime the most of the cases are barred, sadly.

I hope the wrongdoer receive one's just deserts. And I hope the children who are now adults find they're come to terms with that.

What do you think about that?

So, having said this,
Markus